Christmas Eve's Eve

Today is Christmas Eve's Eve!  I have always gotten a kick out of saying that!  

The kids were great!

Seriously.  They both were great today.  They had some minor scuffles, but, for the most part, there was harmony in the Smith house today.  

We went to the hospital to eat lunch with Dad today.  Then we went to the doctor for Shaun's allergy shots.  Then back home where Jordan took at long nap.  

Chris got called in to work again tonight and the kids wanted popcorn, so off to the store we went.  They've had their snack and now they're in bed.  

Oh- and I made glazed chicken for dinner tonight.  The "glaze" was basil, honey, and balsalmic vinegar.  It was quite tasty.  

Tomorrow Chris and I will finish our Christmas shopping.  I haven't wrapped the first gift yet.  It wouldn't be Christmas if I didn't put everything off until the last minute, now would it?

Its 7:34 AM...

and I have already:

Cooked and eaten breakfast

Taken Jordan to the potty

Broken up 2 fights between my children

Started 2 movies

Folded a load of laundry

Cleaned the kitchen

Vacuumed

Scraped spilled eggs off the floor

Why have I done all this before 8:00 AM on the first day of Christmas vacation?  Because my boys are weirdos that wake up at 6:00 in the morning when they know they don't have school.  Anybody know any good day care centers?

Number Two

Today Jordan pooped in the toilet for the first time!  Yaaay!  I'm so proud.  And ecstatic. And seeing dollar signs because this means I'm a little closer to being in a diaper free household.  After he was finished, he said "I dropped it in the toilet, mom".  Um, Yeah.  Sometimes I think I'm going crazy living here with all these boys.  

PS- And no, I did not take a picture of him standing proudly beside the toilet with his poo still inside the way Kate Gosselin did!

Bring on 2009

So, 2008 is winding down.  Only a few more weeks.  Thank God. I 've been doing some thinking over the past few days.  I thought last year was  bad, but I can honestly say that 2008 has been worse.  It has sucked, and frankly, I'm glad to see it go.  

I remember this time last year.  I was pumped and excited, ready to take on the 30 Day Fast in January.  I was so certain that taking the time to fast and pray would turn things around and that I would indeed "Have a Great 2008".  Not so much.  Instead, this year has been the worst year of my life, so far.  I have lost relatives, lost friendships, seen my children suffer, and have cried myself to sleep to many times to count.  I have been disappointed in my marriage and have watched my finances suffer.  

Last week I had this thought "If this is what fasting gets me, I'm better off without it".  Really.  I prayed and fasted for my grandmother's healing.  She passed away anyway. I prayed for my Uncle Jeff's physical healing.  He passed away, too.  I prayed for physical and emotional healing for Shaun.  He's no better.  I fasted for my family's finances.  Don't get me started on this issue!  The list of disappointments list on and on.  

We're talking about the upcoming Fast at church already, and my initial decision was to just blow it off this year.  Then, I had a revelation.  First of all, God commands us to fast.  So Christians should fast, regardless of whether or not we reap any "benefits" from it or not. Secondly, I had the wrong idea about the fast in the first place.  Fasting is new to me.  I incorrectly assumed that if I fasted and prayed, nothing bad would happen and all the wrongs in my life would be corrected.  WRONG!  Bad things are going to happen.   That's life.  Once I realized this, I had a whole new perspective.  I started thinking about the GOOD things that happened this year.  The less obvious stuff.  This is what I found:

 1.  I lived through this year!  That is huge, considering all that has happened.  I lived through it and I'm still in one piece!  And I did it even after weaning myself from my Zoloft!

 2.  My marriage is stronger than it has ever been.  

 3.  I am closer to my family.

 4.  I have a better appreciation for life- I do not take it for granted anymore.

 5.  My faith has increased greatly.

 6.  I am closer to God than I have ever been before.  

 7.  My oldest son was Saved this year. 

 8.  His grades have improved.

 9.  I have become more content with what I have (and what I don't have).

10.  I have seen God use a tragedy to pull my family together.

11.  I have learned to comfort.

12.  God has given me the grace to forgive those who I once considered unforgivable.  

These are just a few.  I am really blessed, and I thank God for opening up my eyes.  I am still ready for 2009, though.  I can't wait to see what He's gonna do! 

Nativity

Well.  I wanted to post a picture of Shaun and the Nativity scene he arranged tonight.  But Chris re-arranged our office yesterday and now I can't find the cables for the camera.  Maybe next time. Shaun tried several times before getting it just right.  In the end, he decided that all of the characters (Mary, Joseph, shepherds, angel, animals, and Jesus) belonged in the little barn together.  Then he lined up the 3 wise men in front of the stable, one after the other.  Why?  Because that's what it looked like when we watched Nativity Story on Friday night.  Heh.  That's my boy!  He even took a picture of his work.  Man, I wish I could find that cable!

I'm about to turn in.  Chris is in CA tonight, so I'll have the bed to myself.  

Awesome Weekend Recap

This past weekend was wonderful.  The Smith's had a lot of fun:

Chris had band practice Friday night, so the kids and I spent the afternoon and evening with Aunt Lori and the cousins.  It was a bit stressful, but we had a good time anyway.  We got home around 9:00, and the band was still going.  Luckily the kids conked out pretty quickly.  I got to relax in my room.  I watched a movie that wasn't great, but it didn't really matter.  

Saturday was long.  We all went to Shaun's sparring class.  He did a great job, as usual.  After class, we went to 3-D Life to get our Christmas Tree.  I just loving going to 3-D Farm.  They are a drug and alcohol rehab center for teen boys.  The entire group attends Free Chapel with us, so we see first hand the work God is doing in this ministry.  We went on a hay ride and cut our own tree.  Jordan's favorite part of the trip was all of the dogs on the farm.  Here are some pics:

We also went to a Christmas parade Saturday night.  It was freezing, and we almost froze our tails off, but we had a good time.  My nieces were in the parade- their ballet class had a float- so it was fun to see them riding down the street with all of the other little ballet girls.  

Sunday, we had a great service at church.  The kids and I sat in on Kidpak's 3rd service, and I got these shots of Chris showing off his awesome bass/vocal skills.  

It was a good weekend.  Very good, indeed. 

Okay, God...I get it!

God has really been speaking to me clearly lately.  I'm talking about BAM-in your face kind of clearly.  Since this doesn't really happen all that often, I get excited when it does.  Even if what He's saying isn't something I want to hear about myself.  

For the past several weeks, I have been stressed.  Not just the average stay at home mom stressed, but severely stressed.  So stressed that I've needed breaks away from my children several times last week.  I have been so short-tempered and grouchy with them.  One day last week, I think it was Tuesday, I came back home after dropping Shaun off at school and cried for 30 minutes remembering the things we said to each other that morning.  Now, my oldest child is no picnic to be around in the mornings.  Mornings are rough for us.  He has some health issues that rear their ugly heads when he first wakes up.  He can be downright hateful and extremely hard to deal with.  I am used to this behavior and we're working with doctors trying to figure out how to fix it.  Up until recently, this stuff didn't bother me all that much.  But last week it did.  I had absolutely no patience with him.  I yelled.   I screamed.  I spanked.  We both said some awful things to each other.  We made up on the car ride to school and I prayed over him before he got out of the car, like I do every morning.  As soon as the car door shut, I began to cry.  I kind of held it together on the way home, but once inside the house I lost it. I cried for myself.  I cried for Shaun.  I cried for Jordan, who has to witness all this drama every single morning.  Then, for the first time, I really began to pray for God to give me what I needed to be a Godly mother to my children.  I want them to see Jesus in me and in the way I treat them.  He told me to read the books of Timothy.  I have tried to read Timothy before, but have never gotten very far.  Wow.  What a message from God.  The thing that stuck out the most is that, as a Christian, I should learn to control my tongue.  For the longest time, I always related that to gossip.  For the first time ever, I saw that controlling my tongue also means that I need to get a grip on my tone of voice and my words themselves when dealing with my children.  

So, I prayed and apologized to both Shaun and Jordan.  Told them I would try to do better.  The scripture I read stayed with me and I've been dwelling on it ever since.  I got to church this morning, and guess what the sermon was about?  Yep- controlling your tongue.  It was like God was shouting to me- "Listen to me, Erin.  I know what I'm talking about, and you REALLY need to listen to me.  You NEED to do this.  Your mouth is keeping you from having a perfect relationship with me".  It was a great sermon.  I'll have to make sure I get a CD so I can listen to it whenever I feel my old ways creeping back.  

My mouth has gotten me in trouble so many times.  I know it will take a lot to tame it.  But I'm gonna do it.  My mouth is standing between me and God right now, and I'm tired of it.  So I'm making a vow right now.  Tomorrow morning is going to be better.  At least for tomorrow, Satan is not going to win.  

All by MYSELF...

for 2 hours, anyway.  My wonderful husband took both of the kids to Shaun's Tae Kwon Do class so that I could relax for awhile.  The house is quite- pure bliss!  

Ealier today, I fought the "nap-time fight" with Jordan...and won!  Whhooohooo!  He took about a 2 hour nap after he fell asleep watching "Casper".  This afternoon was much better than it has been for the past few weeks.  

Today is my Mamaw's birthday.  She would have been 75, I think.  I miss her.  I was depressed today.  We should be getting ready to go to her birthday dinner.  At least that's the way I feel, but God had other plans.  I wonder if God ever gets tired of me trying to tell him how to do his job?  

My aunt Nancy will be turning 50 this weekend, so my mom and her sisters have planned a surprise party for her on Thursday night.  Nothing fancy, just dinner at Papa's Pizza- but the kids are excited.  Papa's is one of their favorites!  It feels good to be celebrating something with my family.  I love them!

All by ourselves

Chris is in California.  He will be leading Kidpak worship at Free Chapel OC tonight!  He left early this morning and will be back tomorrow night.  So, Shaun is the man of the house.  

Things went pretty well this morning.  We made it to church on time, in spite of all this rain.  Seriously- I can't remember the last time it rained on a Sunday morning, and the first time I have to get the kids in by myself, it poured.  All I can say is "Thank you, Lord, for shuttle buses!".  Once we got inside, we had wonderful church- but we miss Dad.  It was strange being there without him.  Even though we don't get to sit together in the services (Chris has to stay backstage with the rest of the band) we still meet up in between services and of course, its nice to have an extra pair of hands to help wrangle in our hyper boys.  But, we made it.  

We met up with Lori her family at Ryan's afterwards, and the girls will be here in a few hours to play while Lori and Todd are at Christmas play practice.  Then my parents are coming over to sit with the boys while Lori and I go clean the building.  So, as you can see, I will have lots of help while  Chris is gone.  

Thank goodness he'll be back tomorrow!

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is almost over for us.  We're getting together one more time this afternoon, and then that's that until Christmas.  As far as Thanksgivings go, this one was pretty good.  Really good, considering all my that my family(s) have been through this year.  

We started the day off by going to my sister-in-law's house.  She did most of the cooking, but I did contribute a green bean casserole and some homemade mac and cheese.  All in all, we had a very nice visit with the in-laws.  Chris and I agreed that it was the best Thanksgiving we've had with them in a while.  On the way to Mandy and Rob's, we passed through the town of Hoschton.  The town recently broke the world record for having the most scarecrows displayed in their town.  As you can see, they were very interesting.   

Some were cute, but mostly I got a creepy "Children of the Corn" feeling.  It was neat to see, anyway, and Shaun got a kick out of them.  

Later on that afternoon, we went to my Aunt Nancy's house.  I knew this one would be tougher.  Our first Thanksgiving without Mamaw.  But it turned out okay.  Of course, we were sad.  My mom had the idea to light a candle to burn throughout the meal in Mamaw's memory and honor.  I only cried a little.  As my Aunt Patsy put it "She wouldn't come back for anything in the world".  I know that's true, because she's in Heaven- she had Thanksgiving with Jesus!  I can't think of anything to be more thankful for.  

Lori and I went shopping on Friday- without the kids.  Thanks Mom and Dad!  We got some of the kids Christmas done, but the best deal of all was for me!  I found an eliptical stair climber on sale for only $30...it was originally over $100.  Of course I got it, since I'm supposed to be getting some exercise.  I haven't tried it out yet, but its all set up and ready to go.  

Now its Saturday, and I'm about to start cooking for our 3rd and final Thanksgiving get-to-gether.  We're going to Granny's at 5:00.  It'll be another toughie...My uncle passed away in July, so its another first.  My grandparents aren't doing too well.  They're depressed, which is to be expected.  I think this holiday season is going to be harder on all of us than we thought.  But we will get through it- we always do.  

Random rants...

-My "cheesy rice dish" I was making for Thanksgiving didn't turn out the way I thought it would.  I'm letting it chill overnight, but I'm thinking its still gonna be gross tomorrow.

-I cut my thumb on a can of tomatoes today while I was making lunch.  It still hurts!

-I had to spend 2 dollars at the grocery store on a pacifier for my almost-3-year-old. 

-I have cooked 3 dishes and still have to get up early tomorrow to cook another one.  And Chris is already in bed asleep.  

-My nice clean kitchen is all messy now from all that cooking.  

Okay, okay.  I know that its technically Thanksgiving Day, and, in spite of these mindless complaints, I have a TON to be thankful for.  Such as:

-Even if my "cheesy rice dish" stinks, its not like we'll be hurting for food tomorrow.

-Even though I cut my thumb, at least I did it while preparing food for my kids to eat.  Some people don't have this luxury.  

-I am thankful for Jordan- even if his passy fits drive me insane!  

-Once again- I have the luxury of being able to prepare food to share with my family.  And my husband may be taking it easy, but at least I know where he is. 

-I have the ability to make my kitchen  clean again.  Unlike some folks, who are too sick to get out of bed.

So there you have it.  I have many, many more blessings to list, but I'll wait until morning.  

Happy Turkey Day to all!

Missing the nap...

Daytimes around the Smith household used to be a lot easier.  We'd wake up, get Shaun off to school.  On the days Jordan did not have preschool, he and I would come home and he'd watch a movie.  Then he'd play or we'd go run errands.  He'd eat a sandwich, and, at 11:00 he'd take a nap.  It was great.  He would begin to get a little cranky around 10:30, and by 11:00 he'd be exhausted.  He would obediently walk to his room, get under the covers, say "goodnight, Mom", roll over, and go to sleep. I'd close the door and he'd stay that way until 2:00 when I woke him to go pick Shaun up from school.  He'd be a little cranky right after he woke up, but after a few minutes he'd be good to go.  He would happily play or tag along on errands, whatever.  At night, he'd e ready for bed around 8:30.  Life was good.  Those were the days.

Then, one day a few weeks ago, he decided he didn't like his nap anymore.  I'd lay him down, he'd get up.  I tried rocking, laying with him, watching movies in bed, you name it.  And maybe that would be okay, but Jordan NEEDS his nap.  I mean, he REALLY needs it in order to act like a normal human being for the rest of the day.  Jordan, without his nap, is emotional, defiant, inconsolable, grouchy, mean...the list goes on.  I hate to say things like that about my youngest baby, but let's call a spade a spade.  He still needs a nap.  And I need him to take his nap.  Since the naps have ceased, the house is messier.  I mean,  a lot messier.  Jordan's nap time was my cleaning time.  While he slept I could mop, sweep, dust, do laundry.  Or even read or talk to a friend on the phone.  No more.  And forget doing any of that after Shaun gets home. It is all I can do to get dinner together, help with homework, and try to control the JMan's temper tantrums. 

I thought I'd make up for his missing nap by just putting him to bed earlier at night.  Around 6:30 or 7:00.  I figured he'd still get adequate rest and be fine.  Not so much.  First of all, we're rarely home at 7:00.  Between Shaun's Tae Kwon Do class and church on Wednesday nights, its usually closer to 8:00.  And, I don't understand this, but it seems like the more tired he is, the harder it is for him to go to sleep.  A never-ending cycle this missing nap has caused!  

I'm hoping that this is a phase and one day the joys of a good mid-day nap will dawn on him.  In the mean-time, if anybody has any magic answers or tips to get a willful almost 3 year old to take his nap, please pass them along.  I am getting desperate over here!

Weekend

Here's what I did this weekend:

Friday night- Lori and I took all of the kids to the mall for a Ch

ristmas magic show.  The Magical Jeff McClure made Santa appear at the end of the show, and all of the children formed a parade and walked him down to his chair.  They also gave out FREE carasel rides.  

Saturday- Chris took both the kids to

 Shaun's sparring class while I stayed home to clean.  When they got back, I went shopping with my mom, my sister, and my nieces.  We stayed gone a lot longer than I would have liked, but I still had  good time.  And my mom bought me my birthday present early- 2 new outfits, which I desperately needed.  

Sunday- Went to church.  Had great services.  Went to lunch, came home.  Boys watched a movie while I cleaned- again.  Aunt Patsy and John came over.  Chris and John did music stuff while Patsy and I kept cleaning.  Thanks, Patsy!  Afterwards, we ate beans and potatoes that I made in the slow cooker.  Both turned out pretty good, I think.  My sister (finally) called around 8:30 and we went to clean the office building.  While we were there I was feeling silly and made some very nice turkey drawings.  Came home, and here I am.  I'm not really feeling tired and its almost midnight.  

So, that was my weekend.  It was pretty normal, which is the way I like it!  Next weekend will be hectic with Thanksgiving, and I think Chris is going to California on Sunday.  Now I'm getting tired, just thinking about it.

Here are some pics of our shopping trip on Saturday:

2 good visits

Both of the boys had good reports at their doctor appointments today, which is very rare.  I took them to see their ear-nose-throat guy.  It turns out that Shaun does not have a sinus blockage after all.   Great news!  He does, however, have a deviated septum.  I had the same nose problem when I was a kid.  Eventually he'll have to have surgery, but not until he's older.  He also has some pretty nasty stuff in his nose.  The doc thinks we can fix it with saline, so that shouldn't be too bad.  No new meds, no surgeries- we were happy!

Nothing new for Jordan, either.  His ears looked great.  The only thing is that Dr S. wants to be in the room when Jordan goes for his throat biopsy so that he can take a look at his voice box while Jordan is under general anesthesia.  That's only IF the GI specialist we're seeing decides to do a biopsy.  Judging from the "lung" appointment last week, that's probably what will happen.  But at least they can kill two birds with one stone.  Jordan's reflux medicine isn't working.  Now it is thought that he has some "condition of the esophogus".  Basically, this condition can cause reflux and asthma but is caused by some food allergies....I think.  We have to see a GI specialist and go from there.  

Phew.  Its been a long day.  We just got back from Egleston.  My grandma went with us and even treated us to lunch.  It feels good to have someone take care of me sometimes!  After the kids' appointment we went to Whole Foods Market for organic suckers.  I love that store!  We also had to go to Target for toys since they kids did so well today.  I was especially proud of Shaun- he sat so still while Dr S was looking down his nose with his camera.  I know it hurt and was uncomfortable, and he handled it with flying colors.  

Tomorrow its back to school.  I think I only have one other appointment this week and its in Gainesville, so I can relax and maybe get some housework finished.  I've started to get in the Holiday Spirit.  I can't believe Thanksgiving is next week!

Guess who has a doctor's appointment today?

That's right...Mommy!  I haven't been feeling great lately, so I made an appointment for a physical.  I haven't had any kind of appointment other than OB/GYN in years, but I thought it was time.  My friend Angela recommended a doctor, so I made an appointment.  I must confess, however, that I'm most excited about getting out, by myself, without my wonderful children.  It will be strange to talk to a doctor about ME and not them...not sure if I'll remember how.  And afterwards, if there's time, I'm going to lunch with an old friend from work.  So, big day me.  Tomorrow, though, its back to the grind.  Jordan has an appointment at Scottish Rite.  They'd better have some answers about his collapsed lung!

I owe a huge thanks to my sister- my BFF.  Thank you Lori, for picking up Jordan and caring for him today.  I owe you big!  

Elections and blockages

So, I'm bummed about the election results.  Bummed is putting it mildly.  Terrified is more like it.  I'm terrified of where this country is going over the next 4 years.  I've been praying for this election, and now I'll be praying for Obama, even though it'll be hard!  I know that God is in control, and He can still change things.  I'm praying for a change in Barrack Obama's heart.  That he will see abortion and same-sex marriage issues for what they are:  abominations of God's word. I pray for a change of heart so that Obama will help turn this country back to God. To me, there are no black and white sides of these issues, and these are the 2 key issues that I based my candidate support on.  Now you know where I stand- I voted for John McCain.  I know that he's far from perfect, but I feel in my heart that his values are stronger and that he would have done more to protect this county than Obama will.  But, America has spoken, and now I will support Obama because he will be our country's leader in January.  At least I have until then to get used to it!!

Getting off my election results soapbox now.

Shaun had a CT scan of his sinuses on Monday.  The doctor's office called back yesterday and told me that he has a blockage and needs to see an ENT.  Luckily, he already has a fabulous ENT at Egleston.  Jordan has been seeing him, too, and has an appointment Next Friday.  They are going to squeeze Shaun's visit in at the same time so that we won't have to make another trip.  I have no idea what you do for blocked sinuses.  Surgery?  I hope not.  Shaun's already worried about that, but he's excited that he gets to miss school the day of the appointment.  

Finally...some results!

We got Jordan's test results back last week.  The CT scan of his chest showed that a spot on one of his lungs is partially collapsed.  Apparently this is not as bad as it sounds.  The nurse who called said that it may be due to an illness that he had or something like that.  I told her that he wasn't sick when he had the scan, but that he's sick now, and had been for several weeks.  She asked what was wrong and I told her about his wheezing and his cough, to which she replied, "Well, that brings me to the pH probe results".  Turns out Jordan has significant reflux that could be causing his asthma, or at least contributing to it.  The doctor called in some medication for it, but she does NOT think that the reflux is what's turning his lips blue.  So basically, we're back to the drawing board on that, I think.  

After hearing this, I was still worried about the collapsed lung.  I mean, that just doesn't sound healthy.  And he's had this terrible cough for over two weeks, even after being on Flovent and Albuterol round-the-clock.  The doctor told me that he should not have to be on Albuterol for over 1 week, 1 week and a half max for any given illness.  I told the nurse this, and she just said to write down all of my questions and bring them with me to Jordan's next appointment, which 2 two weeks away.  Hmm.  Not what I wanted to hear.  

Everything was so hectic when I was talking to her.  It was almost time for Shaun to be at karate,  the kids were still in the bathtub, etc.  I called Chris at work and told him the news.  He talked to one of his doctor friends at the hospital who suggested that we have a copy of the CT sent to him so he could look it over.  He also said at the very least he would insist on having another one done to see if the spot on Jordan's lung is any worse, especially since the cough was still so bad.  By this time it was after five o'clock, so it was too late to do anything.  

I calmed down a bit and prayed.  I prayed for God to just heal Jordan's cough and decided to call the doctor back the next day to see if we could get an appointment sooner.  This was Thursday night.  The doctor was out of the office on Friday, but she's supposed to call me back on Monday.  And Jordan's cough is so much better!  He had been coughing and wheezing with practically every other breath for the longest time, and now all of a sudden there's a  big improvement.   Today, the cough was about the same as it was yesterday, but I haven't heard any wheezing.Thank you, God!  He is good and faithful, and I know that He will take care of my children.  

Never again...

Never again will I allow my children to "eat regular food for a special occasion".  I did this today.  I thought, since today is Halloween, why not just let them eat their "regular" candy, with the "regular" food dyes and "regular" preservatives in them.  Let me say it again--NEVER AGAIN!  They went wild!  We only visited 4 houses tonight before calling it quits, simply because they didn't need anymore candy.  I am throwing it away tomorrow.  We've been home 2 hours and they are just now settling down. No one could even get a picture of the two of them because they wouldn't, or couldn't, stop running around. (For the record, Shaun was Batman and Jordan was Robin).   I hope its out of their systems by tomorrow. 

Over Halloween

I realized something today.  I am completely, totally, OVER Halloween.  It used to be my favorite time of year, besides Christmas.  When I was in high school, I literally lived for Halloween, haunted houses, ghosts, etc.  I know, I know-- what a weirdo.  Now, I really couldn't care less about any of it- any of the scary stuff, at least.  I don't have a problem with the kids dressing up in their movie-character costumes and going trick-or-treating.  I can take it or leave it.  But what's with all the bloody, nasty, gore?  I can honestly say that I don't get it anymore. 

Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm closer to God than I have been in a long time.  I just feel uncomfortable taking part in something that seems to glorify Satan.  For as long as I can remember, I've gone to haunted houses every October.  This year, I had no desire whatsoever to go.  Maybe the stuff going on in my life is so bad that I just don't want to be scared unnecessarily.  I don't know.  Its not a bad thing, though.  Think of all the money I'm saving.  Those haunted house tickets are at least $15 each! 

Mom and I went to Party City tonight to get the kids' costumes for the Fall Festival at church.  Shaun and Jordan are going as Batman and Robin.  It was a madhouse in there.  And I must confess that my youngest child is strange.  He was not afraid of anything at all in that store.  Not the skeletons.  Not the  creepy spider skeletons.  Not the bloody skull with the hatchet sticking out of it and its eye balls hanging out of the sockets.  And not even the ugly zombie thing that convulsed and shrieked whenever anyone walked by it.  This, actually, was his favorite thing in the whole, entire store.  He was fascinated by it.  He stayed right beside it, making it do its thing for forever, laughing his head off.  I would have been terrified of that thing when I was his age.  I was such a scaredy-cat.  Not my Jordan.  

When I think about it now, its kind of funny.  And weird.  None of the other children in the store (and there were a LOT) liked that zombie-thing.  In fact, most of them made a point to stay away from it.  And there's my child, giggling hysterically at it.  My relationship with my mom has now come full-circle.  She always had to discourage me from getting into all that scary stuff, and now its my turn to convince MY kids.  Stranger and stranger still.  I guess I really am getting old. 

So, so proud...and surprised!

My mom and I took Jordan to Scottish Rite today for a pH probe.  This is a test that involves inserting a tube into his nose and down his throat to test the acidity of his stomach.  We had to bring him home with the tube still in and keep it there until tomorrow morning when we go back to have it removed.  Needless to say, I was NOT looking forward to this at all.  For one thing, I knew it would be painful for him.  I also know how strong-willed my child is.  And how hyperactive.  I had imagined all sorts of horrible scenarios-- Jordan pulling the tube out, Jordan screaming in pain all day and night.  

Turns out, I was surprised.  

Of course, he screamed and cried when the nurse inserted the tube.  And he did manage to pull it out a little bit.  But, after we got it put back in place and he calmed down, he was great.  And he continued to be great as we left the hospital, on the drive home, and for the rest of the day.  Wow!  God really heard the prayers of His people! 

Its after 9:00 now, and Jordan's asleep...with the tube still in!  It didn't slow him down one bit.  He's done everything he normally does- ridden his tricycle, played out side, you name it.  All without a complaint.  Now, I only hope the results of this test gives us some insight to the mystery of the blue lips.  

Roswell Street Baptist

Yesterday, Chris was given the opportunity to lead worship at Roswell Street Baptist Church, in Marietta.  An hour and a half from home.  This "job" was actually more or less an audition because the church is on the lookout for a new minister of music.  I was totally against this whole thing from the beginning.  First of all, I LOVE the church we attend now.  Secondly, and most importantly, Marietta is an hour and a half away from home.  Which means, if Chris got a job there, we would most likely need to move.  Away from my family.  Out of my grandma's house.  Away from everything I know.  And love.  And need. Away from all of our baby-sitters and my parents, who help me out when my kids are just too much and Chris is working long hours so we can buy groceries.  Away from my sister- my BF!  What would I do without her near me?  Ugh.  

As always, Chris did a wonderful job.  We haven't heard anything from the church yet, but he did great.  Seeing up there, I felt like he was doing what he's been called to do.  And that's so hard.  I had mixed emotions throughout the service.  We've both been praying for God's will to be done, but, honestly, I had secretly been praying for Chris to NOT get this job.  Because of all the things I just mentioned.  But yesterday, sometime during the church service, something changed. 

 Looking out the window of the van on the way home, I decided that I could, in fact, see us living there.  Yes, it would be hard.  Really hard.  On all of us, including the kids.  But somehow God softened my heart and made me more accepting of changes that may or may not be happening.  

I honestly do not think that Chris will be offered this particular job-something in my gut tells me this- but it may happen in the near future.  And I've come to realize that its okay.  God will take care of us.  He's done a pretty good job so far, after all.  I've also realized that I'm a pretty strong person, with God's help, of course!  I  COULD  handle it if God has plans for our family somewhere else.  And that feels great!  Its like a wall has gone down between God and myself.  So whatever happens, I'm good!  And I have to admit that its kind of exciting to see what will happen next. 

In lighter news, Jordan just did something hilarious.  I put him to bed and, as usual, he started playing with his toys, talking to himself, etc.  He does this most every night, and then he gets tired and goes to sleep.  Tonight he was making more noise than usual,  so I decided to see what was going on.  I opened the door to find that Jordan had somehow gotten his hands on a blue marker, colored himself, his sheets, and the wall.  I asked him where the marker was and he said "Here you go".   Too cute.  I just had to take his picture.  I sure hope that blue comes  out of his sheets!

We've got Pee!

Jordan used the potty today!  Hurray!  I guess he was finally tired of wetting his underwear.  I'm so proud.  I wish I could tell Mamaw...  

The boys and I are alone for the weekend.  Chris is in Marietta getting ready for tomorrow.  He's leading worship at a church there.  We'll meet him there tomorrow.  Its kind of boring.  Shaun and I just did his math homework.  Jordan is supposed to be napping, but I hear him playing in his room.  We'll go swimming at my mom's in a little while.  

The weather's hot today.  I'm so glad fall's on its way. 

Moods

I've been in a weird mood all week.  A terrible mood is more like it.  I'm not sure why.  I feel the way I feel when I don't take my Zoloft, but I AM taking my Zoloft.  Finally broke down and made an appointment with a psychiatrist.  Unfortunately, she can't see me until October.  So I'll try to make it until then.  

Tomorrow we're having "Easter" lunch at Granny's.  We never got around to having our get together last spring because of Jeff and Mamaw being sick.  Its gonna be weird.  It'll be nice to be together, though.  

Jordan has been on a new kick lately.  We put him to bed.  He gets up and plays and takes off all of his clothes, including his diaper.  Then when he gets tired he gets in bed, minus his diaper, and of course wets the bed during the night.  We've tried everything- even putting him in a onesie.  He still finds a way out.  Guess he just loves to be naked.  Weird.  

Boring weekend recap

This weekend was pretty blah, as far as weekends go.  Got groceries and went to dinner with Chris and Jordan on Friday night.  I did get to sleep in  until 11:30 Saturday morning, which was fabulous.  Chris took the children with him to a music store and I stayed home, mopped, watched "Knocked Up" (again), and talked to Allison. We're getting together tomorrow night- Yay!

Went to "clean the building" with Lori and got finished in record time.  Came home and went to sleep in Shaun's bed because he and Chris were sprawled all over my bed watching Monster Squad.  

Went to church this morning.  My class had 34 children.  34!  To say it was crazy is putting in mildly.  Mrs. Heather and I survived, though.  Chris had band practice today.  I think the band's coming along well.  Finally!  Chris has been asked to lead worship at a church in Marietta at the end of August, so they're getting prepared.  While he practiced, I tool the boys swimming.  Actually, I took 1 boy swimming, as the little one wouldn't get near the water.  He stayed on the deck and pouted the whole time.  It was a little chilly, especially with the wind, so we didn't stay long.  Now Shaun has been asleep for 2 hours and Jordan's still playing in his room. 

So, as you can see, nothing really to report.  Now if only Jordan would go to sleep so I can, too!

Bears and books

Shaun is camping out tonight in the mountains with my dad.  They called me earlier to tell me that a big bear was hanging out about 50 feet away from their campsite.  Dad said that Shaun tried to run up to it, but Dad stopped him just in time.  Apparently Shaun felt like he would be safe because he had his light saber with him.  Ummm...okay.  My child is definitely one of a kind.  And I'm not sure that I'm comfortable with him camping in a place that has actual wild animals.  I hope they stay safe in their tent tonight. 

Jordan heard his first story tonight.  I've tried and tried to read to him, but he has never sat still for an entire book before.  He stayed tuned in and in my lap for the entire length of Horace and Morris but Mostly Delores.  It was so sweet.  He's so active that moments like this are rare and I cherish them when they do happen.  He's in his bed, all sacked out.  We had kind of a hectic day.  Lori and I did errands, for the second day in a row.  Jordan didn't get a nap and he was up late tonight, so maybe he'll sleep in tomorrow.  

Oh- I got my hair cut today.  I'm letting it grow but needed a trim because I was starting to have "triangle hair".  I decided to try a new girl out, one I met at church.  Katrina did an awesome job.  My hair actually looked good when I left.  I'll definitely go back to her again.  Now if only I can make it look good again tomorrow.  

That's it for tonight.  I'm beat.  Time for sleep. 

And now I have a second grader

Shaun is now in 2nd grade.  He went in to his new school like a champ.  Actually, this morning started out pretty hairy.  But it got better, as it always does.  Jordan and I walked him in and all was well...until Jordan realized we were leaving and Shaun was staying.  He pitched a fit all the way to the car.  He loves his Shaunie, I guess.  The house is so quiet now.  Jordan's  in Shaun's room watching "Motorcycles" - aka Wild Hogs.  I'm going to try and straighten things up before Lori comes over.  We're taking the babies and Jaycee to the sprayground while the big kids are in school.  On the other hand, I might close my eyes and take a nap- I'm exhausted.  I didn't get home from the grocery store until almost 11 last night, then I had to wait for the washer to run so everyone would have their favorite clothes clean for today.  

I feel a lot better about Shaun's teachers.  Both of his teachers are Christians, which is so important.  I think I'm going to like his special ed teacher, too.  Maybe she was just overwhelmed or something the first time we met.  

Wow.  2nd grade.  Now that I'm starting to think about it, its really hard to believe. 

A pretty good day

Today was good.  Great, actually.  Lori and I took the kids to the Sprayground.  They had a blast- especially Jordan.  Last year he just stayed on the edges, but today he went crazy in those sprinklers.  I feel bad because summer's over and I've only taken the kids once.  Hopefully we'll go back one weekend before they close for fall.  

Fall... that sounds just heavenly.  I am starting to resent this heat that we're having.  Ninety-eight degrees?  Who needs that?  What good can come from heat like that?  Anybody??

After the park, we went to Papa's Pizza.  The kids were well-behaved.  Except for the time when Jordan climbed up into the Ski Ball machine.  Only my son, right?  My sister found this extremely humorous, especially when I had to climb up after him when his foot got stuck.  

Shaun is still awake.  We're out of his sleep meds, so he's having trouble falling asleep.  This stinks, with school starting the day after tomorrow.  Maybe we can make do with some Tylenol PM tomorrow.  

This afternoon I had a headache.  Probably from staying in the sun for so long.  I sent the children with Chris to karate class and had some time to myself.  I had planned to clean, but instead I talked on the phone and made my grocery list.  I did manage to vacuum and clean the kids bathroom, though.  

The boys are getting haircuts tomorrow morning.  Then I guess I'll take them to visit with their cousins for awhile.  Then it'll be home for naps before open house.  Speaking of open house, I just remembered I'm still missing a few things from Shaun's supply list.  After open house we'll go on to church.  The kids are having a back to school thing with candy and inflatables.  Whooo hooo!  Then it'll be home and to bed, hopefully not too late, because school starts on Thursday  morning.  It stinks that school starts on a Thursday.  Wednesday nights are our latest nights getting home.  Its usually 10:00 or so.  Shaun needs to be in bed around 9:00.  But we WILL go to church.  

What a hectic day tomorrow will be.  I'm tired just thinking about it. 

Recap of last week's craziness...

Last week was crazy.  Jordan was sick again with an ear infection.  I didn't sleep for 3 nights straight, which made for an extremely irritable mommy.  The kids and I were in the doctor's office Monday for Jordan's ear.  We were there Wednesday for round 2 of Shaun's wart removal.  Thursday night after karate, Shaun got stung on the eyebrow by some black flying insect.  It was a little swollen Thursday night when he went to sleep.  The next morning his entire eye was so swollen that he couldn't open it at all.  So we wound up at the doctor's office AGAIN, after making a trip to Suwanee to get his new brace.  The doctor we saw prescribed a steroid, which made Shaun act like "crazy-lunatic-demon-child".  He's back to normal now, thank goodness.  Thank goodness that week is over.  He wouldn't let me take a picture of his eye, and I really wanted a photo.  He looked too funny.  Poor thing.

Sunday we went shopping with Chris' mom.  She bought a lot of things for the boys- things  they needed:  clothes, shoes, underwear and a few toys.   It was a good day, even if Chris did majorly tick me off later on that night.  But we got through it.  We always have, and we always will, I suppose.  

I cannot believe that Shaun will be going back to school on Thursday. We went shopping with my mom for school supplies.  I am so blessed to have a mother who helps out with things like that.  We were on empty as far as funds went- we've had a lot of unexpected stuff happen this month, and truthfully, I wasn't sure how I was gong to pay for his supplies.  Thank you, mom!  I think I've got everything except dry-erase markers and a red folder.  Dang- that means another trip to Target before Wednesday's open house.  When did school supply lists get to darned complicated?

Disappointment

Shaun and I went to meet his new teacher today.  Truthfully, I was not that impressed.  She was nice, but I didn't really connect with her.  At least not on the same level that I connected with Mrs. D.  I think trust is a big issue, too.  I'm upset that I'm just now finding out that he's going to have a new teacher.  Shaun is having to adjust to the idea of a brand new school, and we've been talking about Mrs. D. being his teacher all summer.  I just with they would have been honest with us from the beginning.  I doubt that this all came up suddenly last week.  Oh well.  More about the new teacher.  She just didn't seem that personal.  Maybe I'm overreacting, but if this woman is going to be a part of our lives for the next four years, I want to like her!  Maybe it will get better once we get to know each other.  She's also switching the math program to Singapore Math, which Shaun hates.  Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, think positive, positive thoughts.  

Still awake

Jordan is still awake.  He had no nap today and he's still going strong at 11:50 pm.  He's in his room playing with blocks.  What the crap?  I, on the other hand, AM sleepy, but I can't go to bed until he's sleeping.  Its tough to be Mommy sometimes. 

I think his ear is somewhat better today.  We finally got the new drops yesterday, so maybe they're working.  I only had to give Tylenol 2 times today, which is a huge improvement.  

Shaun and I are going to meet his new teacher tomorrow.  He's nervous about going to a new school, and so am I.  We need to have a good year.  The past 2 years have been trial after trial with his schoolwork.  Its so frustrating.  I just want to have a normal, easy year.  I know, I know.  Shaun is not the only child who has ever struggled in school.  But he's mine, and I want things to be better for him.  Pray, pray, pray.  That's all you can do.  Sometimes I still feel pretty helpless, though. 

Another Monday with Dr. Onal

Took Jordan to the doctor again for his ear.  It started the draining business again on Saturday.  Its STILL infected, after 2 rounds of antibiotics.  Now we're trying a new one.  Hope it works. 

On Saturday, Jordan was in a lot of pain.  I made the mistake of giving him some grape-flavored Tylenol.  BIG mistake.  That stupid red dye in it made him into a crazy man.  He did not have a nap the entire day and stayed up until after 1 a.m.  At one point, he knocked over his entire toy bin.  I heard the crash and went to see what was up.  As I entered his room he looked at me and said "Oh my gosh, look at my toys".  Very cute, indeed.  He's such a mess.  He says the funniest things all the time.  

I talked to my friend Abby today.  It was so good to talk to her!  I miss her like crazy.  Her husband recently became head pastor of a church.  We talked a lot about our faith and our struggles.  It was encouraging.  

Summer is winding down.  School starts next week.  Ugh.  Back to the grind.  We're ready, though.  Ready for a change.  God is going to help us have a wonderful year. 

Allergies, asthma, and sinuses...OH MY!

Yup.  Visited the allergy specialist today for Shaun's runny nose.  Turns out he's allergic to some things, has asthma, and has had a sinus infection since last October, when all this runny-nose business started.  We came home with 2 inhalers, a nose spray, and some antibiotics.  He was a good sport about everything.  We took Noah with us to the appointment.  I'm going to be watching him until school starts while his mom is working.  He kept Shaun entertained during the LOOOONNNG appointment, which was a very good thing.  

Afterwards, went back to my sister's house to pick up Jordan.  We let the kids play awhile and then took them to lunch at Papa's Pizza.  I'm so getting tired of Papa's.  The pizza's not that great and the kids always want to play the games instead of eat.  But its cheap, cheap, cheap, and its a buffet.  The boys and I ate for around 8 bucks.  Can't  beat that.  

Jordan did something amazing today.  When we got home from church, I told him to go pick up the blocks on his bedroom floor.  He was building this afternoon when he should have been napping, but that's beside the point.  Anyway, I went to my room to change and I heard Lego's being tossed into the bin.  Jordan was in his room PICKING UP HIS BLOCKS AFTER ONLY BEING TOLD ONCE!!  This is huge!  I was so proud, and made sure to brag on him tons.  He's the sweetest!  

A break and a manger

I got my break this afternoon, after all.  I had a pretty good time, even though I gained 2 pounds at Weight Watchers.  I don't really understand that.  Must be all my night time snacking.  Besides the meeting, I went to Kroger and Dollar General ALL BY MYSELF!  It was HEAVEN!!!  But, I admit it, I missed the kids, so I'm glad I'm back.  

My Granny called me tonight.  She's had this plant since I was a little girl.  Its called "Christ in a Manger".  It only blooms a few times a year, and I've never seen it.  It bloomed tonight, so Chris, the boys, my sister and her family all went to my grandparents house to witness the event.  After a LOT of waiting, the flowers bloomed...and they DID look like Christ in a manger!  The bloom even has a star.  It was pretty neat.  Of course, Chris made fun of us all.  That nerd.  

After dinner tonight, the wind really started blowing.  I looked out the window and saw leaves and dirt flying everywhere.  I decided to go out and investigate, and when I did I got nailed in the head with a flying branch.  Ouch.  Not my smartest move.  

Right now its all calm in the house.  The kids are asleep.  Chris is in bed.  I'm waiting for my Simply Sleep pills to kick in.  I haven't been sleeping so well.  Hopefully that will change tonight.  

Okay, enough rambling.  Time to hit the sack. 

This heat!

Ugh.  What a hot day.  The heat is stifling outside, so the boys and I went swimming for a few hours.  Jordan finally swam all by himself in the arm floats.  We've been waiting all summer for this!  We got home a few minutes ago.  I put Jordan in the bed and started a black bean and rice salad for dinner.  I think it'll go well with the salsa and chicken I've got in the Crock Pot.  

I think I'm getting a break tonight.  I better!  The plan is for Chris to get home from work on time and take the kids swimming again while I go to Weight Watchers.  All by myself!  It better work out that way.  The kids have been a challenge today.  I don't know what it is.  The heat, maybe.  Who knows?  I've feel like I've been yelling at them all day.  Anyway, I'm overdue a shift where I'm "off-duty", and I'm excited.  Even if its just going to a W W meeting.  What an exciting life I lead!

So, this is what's been happenin'

I'm back to blogging again.  I stopped for a while.  I guess I just got too busy.   Here's what's happened in the past few weeks:

Our well pump messed up last week.  One minute we had water, the next we didn't.  So the well pump man came out and fixed the wire that had broken.  We got our bill yesterday.  Over 300 dollars.  Ouch.  

Jordan's ear is infected again.  For the second time in less than a month, his ear started draining out nastiness.  Went back to the doctor, who prescribed both an oral and ear drop antibiotic.  He seems better.  At least his ear is staying dry.  I wish I knew if the ear tube is still in or not.  The doc couldn't tell at our visit because of all the gunk.  We go back next week for a re-check, so guess I'll find out then. 

Shaun had his hair dyed a lovely shade of  blue.  That's right, blue.  We let him dye his hair blue for good behavior.  Actually, its fading so now it looks kinda green.  He loves it, though.  I figured if he wants weird hair its better to let him do it now.  That way it'll be out of his system.  I remember I always wanted to dye my hair and I was never allowed.  The minute a could drive and had money of my own I bought jet black dye.  Goodness.  What was I thinking?  Anyway, the blue will have to be gone by the time school starts, per the School Rules and Regulations we received in the mail.  So its all good.  

We've switched our house around.  The dining room moved to the den.  Chris' studio moved to the "old" dining room.  This is both good and bad.  Good because I no longer have to go down to our spider infested basement to check my email.  Bad because now all of Chris' friends and clients will be up here all the time.  We painted the new office gray and put in new carpet.  Actually, Chris and my dad did it, and they did  a great job.  It looks wonderful.  Eventually we will enclose the garage to make more recording space. 

Chris and Rex tried out a drummer today.  It doesn't look promising.  They said he was a "metronome" player.  Whatever that is, its not what they want, so the search continues.  

I've been doing a lot of reading.  Right now I'm reading a collection of short stories by Stephen King.  Its pretty good.  I've also been reading a lot of Ted Dekker and Karen Kingsbury, of course.  The library is my new favorite place!

A minute to myself!

Wow.  Mom took Shaun to Tae Kwon Do.  Jordan already fell asleep.  Chris is working.  So I'm all alone!  This never happens, at least not before 9 :00 pm.  

I miss my sister.  She went camping with her family and I haven't talked to her since Sunday.  Not sure when she's coming back.  It is quite boring without her.  The boys and I have been going swimming every day.  They like it better now that Susie and Papa are home from work this week.  

We had fresh garden veggies for dinner last night.  I fried some okra.  It was only my second attempt, and it turned out pretty good.  We also had green beans, tomatoes and cucumbers.  All from mom and dad's garden.  My tomato plants are not growing.  I'm disappointed.  I love garden tomatoes.  

In more somber news, the Smiths are absolutely broke this week.  Ugh.  I hate this.  Neither Chris nor I got paid at church this past Sunday.  I don't know if Chris will get paid tomorrow, either.  We will both eventually get our money, but what with the holiday and people being on vacation, I guess things happen.  When I say broke, I mean 10 bucks in the bank.  We're almost out of diapers, too.  Wonderful.  I praying that Chris gets paid tomorrow, but if he doesn't I'm curious to see how we'll make it to Friday.  I'm surprisingly calm about this.  I guess deep down  know we'll be okay- that God will take care of us.  I'm such a control freak, though- I need to know how its all going to work out.

I think a storms brewing.  I'm hearing some scary loud thunder.  Hope it doesn't wake Jordan.  I gave him some Crystal Light yesterday that had Red 40 in it.  Stupid, I know.  He was up until 11:30.  We had to get up early to take Shaun to school, so he didn't get enough sleep.  No nap today, either, so he zonked out after dinner while he watched "Happy Feet".  He didn't even wake up when  I gave him his medicine and put a diaper on him.  He looks so peaceful when he sleeps...like a little angel boy...

Visitation and 4th of July

We had visitation for Jeff yesterday.  All in all, a  very long day.  I know everybody says this at viewings, but he really did look good.  Much better than the last time I saw him.  Definitely not sick anymore.  My family is doing alright.  My cousins Jerry and Jon act like they're high on something.  Which they probably are.  Who knows?  Kind of an awkward situation.  The funniest thing that happened yesterday:  We were in lounge at the funeral home and one of the funeral home worker men came in.  My dad looked at him and said "Howdy do".  We teased him unmercifully for the rest of the day.  Not sure why it struck me as so funny, but it did.  I always try to find humor in every situation!  

Chris and Todd kept all the children yesterday and met us at the funeral home last night.  After they had seen Jeff, ate cake, and explored a little, we left to go catch some fireworks.  It wasn't meant to be.  The city of Gainesville move the fireworks venue to a park.  Not only was the park full by the time we got there, but traffic was lined up and down the street with people trying to get in.  We drove forever trying to find a spot where we thought the kids could see fireworks.  We finally parked in the lot of a tanning salon, spread our blankets and gave the kids their Happy Meals.  We noticed some clouds and lightening in the distance, but thought the storm would wait.  Before the first firework went off, it started pouring.  We scrambled to get everyone in the vans and went home.  The kids were disappointed, to say the least.  Chris and I were talking and we think it has stormed the past few years on the 4th.  Oh well, there's always next year, I suppose. 

Its about time to get ready for the funeral.  I'm waiting for Chris to get home.  He better not be late!  We're taking the kids to my aunt Rita's house for the afternoon.  Hope she knows what she's getting herself into!

More re: sad news

I finally made it to my grandparents' house tonight.  I'll say it again-- My heart is breaking for them.  Especially my grandpa.  Pawpaw is one of the funniest people I know.  Always laughing, joking, and poking fun at everyone he loves.  Tonight, he sat down at the table, looked at me and said "I just don't know what I'm going to do".  Then his eyes filled with tears.  Horrible- one of the saddest things I've ever experienced.  Granny is doing better than I expected.  She hugged me tonight and told me that I'd have to help her through this.  I don't know what I can do for her, but I'll try to be there if she needs something.  Its strange when you're the one having to support your supporters.  I've had to be strong a lot over these past few months.  When my grandmother died, I remember holding onto my mom as the funeral directors wheeled her out of the house.  I had never had to comfort my mom before.  She's always been the one to comfort me.  Like I said, strange.  And sad that I have to be thinking about this. 

Tomorrow will be hectic.  I don't really know what to do with the children.  My mother's sister had planned a cookout.  I think I'm going to send Chris and the kids to the cookout while I go to the visitation.  Then we'll all go back for the 2nd visitation at 6:00.  I'm exhausted now, so I'm going to try and get some sleep. 

Sad news

Got a call from my sister at midnight last night.  My uncle Jeff, my dad's brother, passed away.  We are shocked, even though he's been sick for about a year and a half now.  I just saw him this past Sunday.  He didn't look that great, but he acted okay and he'd been having some better days.  My grandparents have pretty much been taking care of him since he's been sick.  He's divorced and his kids aren't around much.  The grandparents are taking it pretty hard.  So is my dad.  My grandparents had called him last night when Jeff got so sick, and he had to do CPR on him.  I can't imagine.  

My heart is breaking for my grandparents.  I cannot imagine out-living my children.  I don't know what to say or do.  I called to talk to her, but someone else beeped in after only a few minutes.  I'm going to try to go see them later on, after Chris gets home.  

Shaun was upset by the news, more than I expected.  He wanted to know if Jeff was saved or not.  I didn't know.  But I just talked to my mom and she said that Jeff had been saved when he was a little boy.  So, hallelujah, he's in Heaven!  At least the family has that for comfort. 

Old Friends

Went to visit with  my old friend Allison yesterday.  It was so good to see her.  We had a nice talk.  She has had a hard life and had to grow up much too quickly, but seems to be doing better now.  Jordan was terrified of her dogs, which was quite hilarious!

Went back to Weight Watchers today after my 3 week hiatus.  I only gained .2 pounds, which blew my mind.  Its time to get serious about this weight loss thing.  Yeah.  But its so hard to get motivated.  

Shaun walked into school by himself this morning!  Hooray!  Now if I could just get him to sleep in his own bed at night.  Baby steps, right?

Here I am

So, I've finally joined the rest of the free world and started to blog.  Mostly for myself.  If anyone else reads or comments, that's great.  If not, that's great too.  I have a ton going on in my life with my kids, my marriage, and my faith.  Its not all good, but I'm trusting that God will get all the glory one day, and this blog will be the story of me.  That's all for now.  I want to get some reading in before bed.