I'm glad I had this verse to fall back on this week. What a week.
Co-op started back up again today. I was in a sour, discouraged state and honestly just didn't want to be there. But, I sucked it up and went inside and tried to act as though everything was great. I really didn't want to be around all of the other mothers with their perkiness and their praise reports. I know. That's mean.
Our group leader said something I so needed to hear during announcements. She had been reading a devotional meant to encourage us during the fast (I missed most of it because Jordan had to go to the bathroom)and she pointed out that most of the time she or someone in her family is hit with a struggle whenever they are involved in a fast. She went on to say that this was usually just Satan himself trying to break them down before they got their break through.
Yes, I really needed to hear that.
We had some unexpected news in our own little family this week. Smack in the middle of our fast. As usual. I've almost come to expect it. But still, it feels like a low blow. I got mad, screamed "why", and then wallowed in a funk before I even remembered that it's not my place to tell God how to run His affairs. It seems like I'm always needing reminders of this!
And so, we'll keep on keepin' on. Even if we don't feel like it. We'll wait on God to give us answers and healing in His own time. We will focus on being content and remember all of the times when God has shown out for us in the past. We'll give our future, and the futures of our kids, to God and wait patiently until we finally see the end of our story.
At the end of the day, I was glad that I went on to co-op. I tend to close myself off a lot of the time- a sure way to feed depression. I had a "therapy session" in the baby class. Surrounded by my sisters in Christ, I was encouraged and we laughed a lot. It's always so good to laugh! God also brought a new friend into my life today. I was once again reminded that He knows what we need, when we need it.
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