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I went back to the doctor today and heard good news.  God heard our prayers...my "tear" is healing!  Last week it was 4 centimeters long and today it was down to 3 centimeters.  The doctor was even more optimistic than he was last week!
Before the ultrasound, the doctor couldn't find the baby's heart beat.  Very scary, especially since the dopplar picked it up two weeks ago.  We heard it loud and clear on the ultrasound, though.
Thank you, Lord!
I was kind of surprised.  I was actually thinking I'd get the "all clear" today, But Dr C wasn't surprised at all.  He said he wasn't expecting the tear to be completely better.  So I guess I'm on target. 
Until I am completely healed, my activity is still limited.  This is harder than I thougt it would be.  I'm so grateful for my friends and family.  They've cooked, watched my kids, and organized my house.  Don't know where we'd be without 'em!

Pelvic Action

My husband.  He "knows" my doctors because he works with them.  This can be awkward, for obvious reasons.  For example, when I went to the doctor last week and Dr C was explaining to us the conditions of being on "modified bed rest".  He actually looked at my husband and said, "Sorry, no pelvic action".
Ew.
I go back to the doctor tomorrow.  I'm nervous.  I still have my peace, but I'm nervous. 
Please pray with us for my healing and a safe baby.
Hopefully all will be back to normal soon.

My Tuesday

5:00 a.m.  First alarm rings.  Hit snooze, nudge The Hubs awake and fall asleep again.
5:30 a.m.  Second alarm rings.  Really nudge The Hubs and ask if he's planning to go to work today.  Fall asleep again.
7:30 a.m.  I am unexpectedly awakened by my alarm which was set for yesterday.  I turn it off and go back to sleep.
8:30 a.m.  The real alarm goes off.  I hit snooze,  roll over, go back to sleep. 
8:35 a.m.  Alarm goes off again.  I get up and take some Zofran so maybe I'll feel like eating breakfast. 
I begin to get ready for the day.
8:43 a.m.  Miss a call from my friend Elia because I'm still in the bathroom. 
8:55 a.m.  Wish I had more of my own clothes, most of which are over at the old house.  Settle for a pair of Chris' sweats and one of his shirts, too.
9:00 a.m.  Hear the boys scurrying around.  Ask if they'd like some eggs for breakfast. 
9:05 a.m.  Boys get dressed for co-op (I had decided to skip today but Jordan really wanted to go to his science class) while I scramble some eggs.
9:15 a.m.  Boys and I sit down at the table, which was brought over last night.  We have prayer and eat our eggs without salt.  Because our salt is still at the other house.
9:30 a.m.  Shaun finishes his eggs and asks for some of last night's Shepherd's Pie.  I make a mental note to ask Wendy for the recipe.
9:45 a.m.  I load the dishwasher while the boys brush their teeth.  They then go outside to wait on their Mama Susie, who has generously offered to take them to school.
9:55 a.m.  Boys leave for school.  I get comfy on the couch.
10:00 a.m. -11:30 a.m.  Return Elia's phone call, read, pray, try to determine if the crampy feeling in my abdomen is regular pregnancy stuff or something to worry about.  Decide on the former.  Marvel at how quiet the house is.  Text a few friends, answer some emails. 
11:35 a.m.  Realize that the kids will be home soon.  They wanted hot dogs for lunch so I begin getting it ready.
11:40 a.m.  My mom calls and says the boys want to stay at school longer and will just eat lunch there.  I decide on what to have for lunch myself (WW Smart Ones-  Lasagna Florentine and some spinach)  and put it in the microwave.
11:45 a.m.  Return to the couch and begin this post while waiting for lunch to heat up.  Get caught up and forget about lunch until...
12:04 p.m.  Eat.  I realize I haven't vomited since last Thursday and say a prayer thanking God for Zofran.
12:20 p.m. Decide to move to my bed.  Get comfy.  The Hubs sends a text to check on me.  I answer it, let him know I'm fine.  Begin to panic a little about the boys' birthday party.  Its on Saturday and nothing's planned yet.  I don't even have anything to write with, so I make a mental note to tell Chris to bring all of our school supplies back from the other house this afternoon so that I can begin making making my shopping list.  Decide to read some more.
12:33 p.m.  Look up from my book and wonder what I'd see if I had a pair of binnoculars...I look straight out of my window from my bed, directly at the house across the street.  This makes me wonder what Wayne, my across the street neighbor, would see if he had binnoculars.  I decide maybe I should close my curtains.
1:00 p.m. Kids come home, show me what they did at school, and go outside to play.  I visit with my mom for a few minutes before she leaves.  Check Twitter and Facebook.  Discover that my friend Vicki is bringing a Mexican casserole for dinner tomorrow.  Look forward to seeing her.
1:30 p.m.  Jordan bursts into the door to announce that he has to poop.
1:33 p.m.  Shaun also comes inside to use the restroom.  I laugh at them.  They are quite funny.
2:30 p.m.  Take some more Zofran
2:36 p.m.  Boys ask for a snack and they want it to be a hot dog.  I decide to pick my battles and let them have one.  Then I get back on my bed.
2:45 p.m.  Miss a call from The Hubs because I'm in the bathroom. 
2:49 p.m.  My neice sends me a text,asking if the boys can come play.  Since her siblings are sick, I suggest she come play here.  I do not get a reply, which leads me to suspect that she has hijacked my sister's phone.
3:04 p.m.  Remind the boys to clean up their snack mess in the kitchen.
3:15 p.m.  Chris comes home from work.  Jordan tells me that Daddy came home with a puppy.  Thankfully, he was "just telling a joke".
3:30 p.m.  AT&T breaks the news that we are too far from the road to get UVerse. 
3:35 p.m.  My parents come over to help Chris finish up some projects.  My mom wants to know how bored I am, asks if I'd like some jigsaw puzzles, and tells a funny story about my dad from before I was born.  I move back to the couch to watch some footage of Jordan at yesterday's soccer practice. 
4:00 p.m.  The kids continue to play outside while Chris and I visit with my parents.
5:00 p.m.  It begins to rain, so the kids come unside and my parents go home. 
5:05 p.m.  I grab a handful of Cheeze-its and go back to my bed because the boys want to play X-Box in the living room.

6:30 p.m. My sweet friend Jessica comes over with tons of delicious food. It was great to talk to her! 7:00 p.m. Stuffed from dinner, I return to the couch. 7:30 p.m. Desperate to get out of the house, I drive to the other house to get some of the kids' school books and my Willow Tree figurines. 7:45 p.m. Back at home, on the couch. 8:00 p.m. Chris and the boys go back to the other house to move some more things and I read the latest issue of Entertainment Weekly. 9:00 p.m. They return home. 9:15 p.m. Chris leaves for the grocery store. 9:30 p.m. I lay down with Jordan. He wants a story about how Chris and I kissed when we got married. 9:45 p.m. Lay down with Shaun. He wants to talk about how annoying Jordan was today. I listen and then remind him that I never got along with my sister either and now that we're all grown up, we're best friends. He wanted to hear that about as much as I did when I was his age. 10:15p.m. The Hubs comes home from Kroger with everything on the list...and much more. 10:20 p.m. We begin to watch "The Help". 1:09 a.m. Movie's over. The Hubs is sacked out on the couch. Kids are sacked out in Shaun's bed. Think I'll go to bed myself. And there you have it. My Tuesday. Was that exciting or what? I've never been quite bored enough to chronicle my day. Don't be too jealous. ;)

Moved

We moved last night.  Sort of.  There's still a ton to do but we spent the night at the new (old?) place last night.  The kids went right to sleep in their own rooms, even without a movie.

My friend Wendy brought us dinner tonight.  Shepherds Pie.  I'd never had it before, but now I love it.  I'm so thankful for my friends.  And my family who have all gone out of their way to help us out while I'm off my feet.

I'm blogging from my phone because our Uverse service hasn't been switched over yet.  That was supposed to happen today but there was a crazy mix up at AT&T today.  No internet does NOT make being on bedrest any easier, let me tell you.

The boys just came home.  Jordan loved soccer and everyone loved our dinner.  Both boys had seconds and Shaun wanted thirds.  They had to eat on the kitchen counter because we don't have a dining room table yet.  Hopefully that will change in a few minutes. 

I don't go back to the doctor until Thursday.  I wish it was tomorrow.  I don't like this waiting game.

Baby News

The Hubs and I went back to the doctor early yesterday morning. He did another ultrasound and saw a tear in my uterus. This may have been caused by my violent gut-wrenching vomiting. Or not. Sometimes it just happens. Dr C did prescribe some Zofran to help with the nausea and so far it's working. He is very optimistic that the tear will heal on it's own and wants to see me again next week. In the meantime, I'm on modified bed rest. This means pretty much staying off my feet which should be interesting considering I home school two very active boys. My mother has been a great help, as usual. I'm so blessed to have the parents that I have.

The Dr did say that I could get out some. I just don't need to be out and about for more than two hours at a time. Out to dinner is fine- which is how I managed to have birthday lunch with Shaun. Going to church is fine. I guess the doctor doesn't realize that going to church is an all day affair for us. Ha ha! I laughed a little when he said that. Long shopping trips are out- which is why Shaun and dad went shopping without me. I did, however, venture in to Lowe's to pick out new flooring. Did I mention that we're moving? Very soon? But that's a different post.

Our (growing!) baby looked great again yesterday. Heart rate in the 180s and we are able to make out little facial features. This baby likes to have it's hand up near it's face, just like Shaun and Jordan did. So precious. If you pray, please continue to pray for us. I still have my peace, but covet your prayers.

That's all for now. I imagine I'll be blogging quite a bit if for no other reason than sheer boredom. Ha!

Happy Birthday, Shaun

Shaun turned 12 today. It was kind of a crazy day that didn't go at all the way I imagined his birthday. I had a doctor's appointment in the morning and Jordan had one this afternoon. The kids spent the day with my parents playing with their cousins until time for Jordan's appointment and then we all went out for a very early dinner together. Shaun chose Longhorn. And we even let him order from the adult menu, since technically he's old enough now. (We brought home tons of leftovers)

He went shopping for birthday gifts with his dad and then we met up for a 2nd dinner at my parents house. Kind of hectic, but I think he had a good day.

Happy Birthday, Shaun! I am so proud to be your mother!

Peace

The Hubs and I spent a few hours in the E.R. tonight. Right before leaving for church I began cramping and bleeding. The doctor's office was about to close, so they sent us to the hospital.

Of course, I was crying and freaking out. Because that's me. It's what I do. But somehow, between our house and and the restroom at the hospital my heart experienced peace.

Remember that verse of "I've Got The Joy Down In My Heart" that goes "I've got peace that passes understanding down in my heart"? Well, for the first time in my life I think I really understood what that verse is talking about. The really cool part is that this peace came before we knew everything was okay. In fact, I was positive that we were losing our baby. I had been crying since we left our house and sniffling the whole time we'd been at the hospital. Then, as I was changing for my ultrasound, it happened. I swear that God Himself came into that restroom with me, wrapped me in His arms and gave to me a peace I didn't know was possible. At that moment, whatever the outcome of that ultrasound, I knew I'd be alright. It really was unbelievable.

So I had the ultrasound. The good thing and the bad thing about having a husband who works at your hospital is that everyone knows him. There were lots of introductions and awkward bouts of small talk. The ultra sound tech joked around with us and then told Chris to sit at my head so that he couldn't see the screen while she was working. After it was over I was able to relay my epiphany to Chris. The relief on his face made me cry a little more. And then we were sent back to my room to wait on the doctor.

And wait we did. For like an hour. While we were waiting, a nurse came in and started fluids. And we waited and waited. And I knew... just knew that we had lost our baby and I was being prepared for a D and C. And that was okay. I still had peace. I had been in contact with a few close friends through texting. One of them sent a text at that time asking how things were going. I told her that I was okay with whatever the outcome was. Then finally the PA came in and the first thing she said was, "Great news. Heart's beating 183 beats a minute".

Now, I must admit that I don't know the first thing about fetal heart rates, so I asked her if that was good. And she assured me it was. My hormone levels and blood work were also good. I was told that our baby is okay for now but that I was at risk of miscarrying because of the bleeding. And that I was to be on bed rest until 8:30 tomorrow morning when the doctor's office opens.

So here I am. It's 12:35 and I can't sleep. I'm feeling much, much better. Just not tired at all. And still very, very peaceful. Am I nervous about the appointment tomorrow? Of course. But in my heart, I know He has a plan for me and I'm at peace with whatever that plan may be.

If you pray, please be in prayer for us in the morning. Pray that our baby is safe and healthy and that I never lose this peace in my heart.